But Now I See

Circumstances get harder, people disappoint you, expectations are frustrated, and soon you’re putting up walls to protect yourself from taking more damage.

In that place it’s hard to see beauty, majesty, or joy. It’s hard to see anything good. Hope slowly leaches out of your heart, leaving it as hard as the walls around it. You feel nothing.

Then, you see…Him. Not overtly, not in a sky-shattering revelation. It’s something small. Someone else would probably miss it, but despite the darkness you’ve been in, you perceive God’s presence. You’re surprised at your own smile as you remember what joy feels like.

There is a spark in your heart. You hear a whisper there, Jesus telling you to take just one stone out of the wall, not so you can go back to who you were, but so He can help you become who He sees you as.

You pull on the rock engraved “trust”, and with effort, it comes out. The rest of the walls collapse, revealing you to sunshine glinting off water. Your eyes squint at the brightness, but the warmth is softening your heart.

Your sight adjusts. You recognize the grace, protection, and hope He’s been giving you the whole time. You see Him, more clearly, more powerfully than you’ve ever known. In your next breath you’re filled with a sense awe and majesty like you’ve never felt before. The revelation of how deeply you’re loved overwhelms you.

At first it’s too big a wave, but then your heart and mind drink it in, thirsty for truth and life. For the first time in a long while, you know you’re not alone. You’re never alone.

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. With my right hand I will uphold you and give you justice” (Isaiah 41:10).

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