Sometimes there’s not an answer to why, just a direction. God keeps urging you to move forward, even though you don’t have yesterday figured out, and you’re not completely sure where you’re going next.
If I’m stuck in my head trying to make sense of everything, hearing God say move without knowing all the answers just stresses me out. But if I listen to him with my heart, it’s truly a different story, one that says, “I love you, and I’m with you. Please trust me, and walk this way with me.”
Many of you know chemo left me with some intense neuropathy, especially in my feet. An invitation to minister to pastors in India last week was an honor, but in my head I kept trying to figure out how I was going to deal with the pain.
Last Wednesday, after I finished speaking my fourth message for the week (I had a fantastic time, btw), I invited all the Indian pastors to pray for and encourage one another, and sat down on the side. After a few minutes, the lead pastor felt impressed to have us all pray for Angi, on the other side of the planet.
As he led us, a sensation of both warmth and coolness started growing in my feet. I thought at first it was going to be a wave of pain, because of all the walking and standing, but it was just the opposite. With every minute, the neuropathy pain I’ve lived with for over five years lessened until I could barely feel it.
Over the next couple days, the pain not only disappeared entirely, but about half the numbness has left so far. That’s surprised me more than no pain. I can feel with my feet again. I never thought I’d be so happy to feel my own socks. I’m grateful beyond words.
I know this long, but I just wanted to encourage you. Though your mind wants to figure everything out before making decisions, there’s truly nothing else you need more right now than to know you are loved, you are not alone, and there is a next step to take with Jesus.
We think we’re most capable when we have all the answers. But often, the more we try to figure everything out, the more confused, frustrated, discouraged, overwhelmed, and weaker we get. We’re really at our strongest when we lean on his strength. He has all the peace, joy, and healing you need right now to be more than powerful enough for all the circumstances you’re facing.
Take a breath, take a step, and know I’m praying you get even greater healing and breakthroughs.