I’ve heard people say they’d rather burn out than fade away, as if working to exhaustion and brokenness is pleasing to God. He certainly doesn’t intend for you to wallow in nothingness, but being consumed by performance isn’t his will for you either, and frankly makes you stressful to be around.
That’s not how the kingdom works. God’s desire for you is to be so at rest in his presence that he’s the constant source of your strength, and that you’d grow in power as you grow in him. Regardless of being introverted or extroverted, those who are secure in God’s love and purposes for their lives are often the most joyful, attractive, and exciting kind of people to be around. That’s who you’re capable of being, a perfect blend of peace and intentionality, just like Jesus.
God is rest. Nothing stresses or worries him. Nothing you’ve done, or not done, has pushed him out of his love, grace, and kindness toward you. Therefore, his rest for you is one of the most powerful weapons in your arsenal. You can completely frustrate the enemy just by refusing to give in to the fears of failure, loss, and rejection. Rest is how we occupy the territory God has given to us.
Take a deep breath. Take a couple more. Listen for Jesus’ voice. Spend a little time in his presence, at least enough to agree with what he says about you, your circumstances, and what’s possible today in his strength.